I would like to apologize to Akroma and everyone else I offended. I had a very trying day before the RP event directly related to the same type of occurence that happened this nite.. My tolerance for ppl in game who do not show respect for others way of play has come to 0 (to quote the Emperor). I will NOT lay down and take it, I will NOT let them roll over me and and I will NOT shut my mouth and play dead.
I do however see that my anger seems to affect the group negatively, which hurts me far more than others lack of concern for my style of play. The only solution I can think of, is when my tempers flare, back off the game, go home, and be alone. So from time to time I may not answer my pigeons, or attend group events. Not trying to be rude, trying to fingd level ground.
My biggest obstacle in this game isnt money or skills, its trying to avoid what happened last time I quit. Throwing 3 Gm chars down the tubes and hurling a 2K laptop off my balcony. Im hotheaded, impulsive, and also 30 yo and too old to change. If I offend you please tell me, I am an honorable person, I will apologize, I will not hold grudges, just be patient with me, Im trying my hardest this go around.