The loss of a monster., Discovery of self. Options

[Eban]

"I told her I couldn't approve of something that would leave a child an orphan, and crush Eban." The words of the Empress stuck with Eban, even days after the seemingly helpful statement. Is he that fragile? Would he really fall apart, should all this? For sometime, this had been festering in the back of Eban's mind, but recent circumstances have pushed it to the forefront. He once thought that the Guardians had made him weak, not in the sense of skill, or strength, for both have only improved during his two year stay, but the will he once had. There was a time where he would draw arms because of an unfavorable glance, but all he has done lately is prevent bloodshed. The last life that he took, is all but a distant memory, when he claimed Death himself, the better part of half a year past. What was it about these people that turned a "Barbarian" into a Senator; A killer into a man of relative Honor? One thing is for certain, he lost what he thought was himself a long time ago; and found someone willing to die for his Empire, someone with the capacity to care for another more than himself. Something Human; he just didn't know that it would make things this damn hard.